keeping it real.

This really isn’t a story. This is more of an insight I’m having right… now… I think I am realizing just how afraid I am. I am afraid I’m not thin enough, pretty enough, smooth enough. I wish you could feel how I do sometimes as I feel as though I could claw my way…

9.

Mom is weak like me. Her home and it’s hallways are lined with piles of old papers, random clothes stacked waist-high, and boxes of books that I had learned to avoid running into in fear of a stubbed toe at the earliest of ages. There is a certain kind of boredom from being neglected in…

tyler durden’s popcorn club!

I decided to log into my register at the worst possible moment. The Popper was making a high-pitched screech of a sound as the the kernels circled around within the kettle refusing to burst forth above the lid line any further. The smoky remnants of burned kernels hung in the air. Annabelle was telling a…

to sum you up: in 6 acts.

1. Imagine you are sitting in a dark room, 93% darkness, 7% silhouette of me sitting in the only chair facing right in front of you. This dark room is 9 ft in length, 6 ft in width, and the quiet envelopes us as your eyes adjust to me and I adjust to you. This…

Rx

When I go to see my doctor, I tell her I’m fine. She doesn’t seem to notice that California has been hit by it’s own hurricane just as big as Harvey. Water up to our chests and me looking around the room wondering where the panic lies. Everything’s great, I say. She’s treading water easily,…

hofbrahaus

It is never guaranteed that following a Serbian man around Munich after midnight will leave you unscathed. Moreover, if you just met this man a few hours before and in that length of time were in the midst of downing two liters of beer while your cohorts discussed stealing their mugs from that very same…

100 ft h i g h and sitting in the wet grass: summer.

As one will tend to do at least once in their coming of age story, I recently discovered that I was an unsightly degree of   l o n e l y . It was the kind in which people could see the hideous purple and blue bruise of a rain cloud hovering over my…

hello again.

  Hello again. It’s been quite some time since we’ve met up last, and for that I am sorry. It seems I have lost my way recently traversing the labyrinths of my mind and trying to fight off any invisible enemies I encounter along the way. I’m not really sure in what direction I’m going…

earthly dilemmas

So I was sitting in class today, staring straight ahead at a screen filled with words my International Relations professor was projecting onto the white canvas hanging from the wall. I had the intense, but thoroughly practiced gaze of someone who wanted their instructor to believe they cared, but I was letting my mind wander…

compresence*

I’m being followed 6 feet behind me by an invisible man. I hear his boots crunch on invisible leaves making me check over my left shoulder multiple times a day. He’s inconsiderately close behind me, breathing down my neck and making me pick up my speed so that he won’t purposefully step down on the…

game theory: in which I describe how you broke my heart.

We were two cars racing head on towards each other, playing Chicken, and waiting for the other to swerve first. The black tar of the road was left with the skid marks of you taking off too quickly not allowing your tires to gain traction under the heavy weight of your car’s frame. I understood…